An Emotional Weekend. . .

Love of my Life bagged a rare Saturday off work, so we decided to hit Birmingham for a bit of Christmas shopping.

OK, we were a tad indulgent. Love of my Life treated us to Latte's courtesy of Mr. Starbuck. We did go to Pizza Express for lunch, and I did buy a new jumper from Top Shop. Oh, and there was the Krispy Kreme donuts that we treated ourselves to on the way home.

So, why did I still get that 'it's so not fair' feeling in the pit of stomach? I know I'm luckier than a lot of people. I have all the essential needs taken care of, and in a way, that makes me feel worse for feeling the way I do.

But, I feel as though I'm working my ass off (last week at work was particularly stressful, hence my lack of posts), earning a decent wage and yet I've got nothing to show for it. Everything that goes in each month is going straight back out again and I don't really have any (actually make that many) treats or savings to show for it.

The more I thought about it, the more down I got. I started maudling over the shoes that I fell in love with but had to put back, I started wanting to go out for dinner and drinks, dancing and cocktails - I wanted to splurge. And knowing I shouldn't only increased that desire. I know that I need to be good now for a greater purpose later on, but it's so frickkin hard!

I feel like such a spoiled brat in one respect and hard done to wretch on the other. One things for sure, I need to start making some progress in the savings stakes as I can't keep feeling this way!